What are words 070116

Back to reality -no more regimes and schedules made for me, everything i do will be largely on my own free will and not having figured out how to spend the next 6 months scares me. I have notions of what I want to do in this 6 months: find something meaningful to do albeit a job I would enjoy or volunteer work, to travel to China (I really want to do this very very badly), to learn to drive which tbh is damn burden like I couldn't care less actually and to perfect portfolio for Uni apps in the short run I guess oh and to maintain relationships. I realise that it's so easy to get carried away in the excitement of making new friends and searching for new opportunities, but it's so so difficult to keep in contact with people especially for me: I somehow feel disconnected with people very very very easily it's a problem I've had forever but I guess it's time to TACKLE it but sometimes like people aren't proactive either so it feels like they don't care about me and probably is true and it's easy to drift apart I guess... Someone said smth like this to me before: some people are of greater significance to you than you are to them (actly loco I think u said it), and i think it really sucks but it's true and I can do two things: either be sad and mope about the other person not putting effort into the friendship, or move on and let it drift apart because if I keep hanging on to something so emotionally draining for myself, it's just going to constantly mess with my head. While I am thankful for the memories, I do think it's best to let things be and move on, so I will. This year, 2016, let go of unhealthy relationships and embrace change and opportunities and experiences. Here's to a year of making huge decisions, making mistakes and learning from them, to the days I will feel horrible which will help me grow, to days that are so amazing that I will remember forever. The year is 1 week in but I guess it's never too late to motivate myself to live better, healthier and happier.