it's a sadness that doesn't go away
that makes me drift miles away even though I'm physically here

I had a dream
We were sipping whiskey neat
Highest floor, The Bowery
Nowhere's high enough
Somewhere along the lines
We stopped seeing eye to eye
You were staying out all night
And I had enough

No, I don't wanna know
Where you been or where you're goin'
But I know I won't be home
And you'll be on your own

Who's gonna walk you
Through the dark side of the morning?
Who's gonna rock you
When the sun won't let you sleep?
Who's waking up to drive you home
When you're drunk and all alone?
Who's gonna walk you
Through the dark side of the morning?

I had a dream
We were back to seventeen
Summer nights and The Libertines
Never growing up
I'll take with me
The polaroids and the memories
But you know I'm gonna leave
Behind the worst of us

Who's gonna walk you
Through the dark side of the morning?
Who's gonna rock you
When the sun won't let you sleep?
Who's waking up to drive you home
When you're drunk and all alone?
Who's gonna walk you
Through the dark side of the morning?

It ain't me, no no
It ain't me, no no
It ain't me, no no
It ain't me, no no
Who's gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?
It ain't me

But I still dissolve into tears at the thought of you

My heart breaks a little more every day but I just get better at hiding it/ why do the people I love always disappoint me so much, treat me so badly/ just spiralling down as waves and waves of mixed emotions crash into me all day all the fucking time/ maybe i should stop hanging out with people at night because that's when I'm most vulnerable and at my worst after forging through a day....../ how much more can a heart take/ just when I think life can't get any worse it just throws curve ball after curve ball at me/ what can I do to stop this, what must I do to stop this mess / maybe I'm the problem and not everything else / why am I here/ can I have a switch button on my emotions and just not feel anymore /save me but no one rly can do anything for me, can they/ only I can save myself but what if I can't

I think being incredibly sick was a blessing in disguise coz it forced me to get the rest I've been needing for quite some time now...

What do you do when a chapter ends?‬
‪Do you close the book and never read it again?‬

How can I be there for people when I can't even be there for myself

40%

We all think we know our limits. Whether you’re exercising, studying, or just trying to break a bad habit, there’s always that moment when you feel like tapping out. To get past that point, Jesse Itzler at Big Think explains a perspective-altering rule he learned from a Navy SEAL who came to live with for a month:

He would say that when your mind is telling you you’re done, you’re really only 40 percent done. And he had a motto: If it doesn’t suck, we don’t do it. And that was his way of every day forcing us to get uncomfortable to figure out what our baseline was and what our comfort level was and just turning it upside down. We all have that will. It’s just a matter of how we apply it not just to the once-a-year marathon, but to a variety of things in our daily lives.

You are more capable than you realize, but you have to fight off the mental blocks you’ve established over the years. You can run farther, you can learn more, and you can resist your vices longer. The next time you feel like giving up, remember, you’ve still got 60 percent left.

Jan 2017

Crit

West Coast Park for site visit

GEQ grp after elevator pitch!

CNY!^

Dragged myself away from aki to join 7C at staycation for 3h... Best 3h of the whole week

Landscape aki site visit at MBS yayyy^

Artfriend run + Basheer + ramen dinner ^

Rooftop sunset watching + discussing proj with maash and YL^

TAS Back to sch BBQ!^

I have the loveliest friends who are willing to come to studio at 1am to help me stick corrugated plastic until 5am^

Wang's bday!^

Second site visit coz changed site...^

First site visit...^

Secret santa with studio!^

First day of sem 2^

Bangkok 2017