My heart breaks a little more every day but I just get better at hiding it/ why do the people I love always disappoint me so much, treat me so badly/ just spiralling down as waves and waves of mixed emotions crash into me all day all the fucking time/ maybe i should stop hanging out with people at night because that's when I'm most vulnerable and at my worst after forging through a day....../ how much more can a heart take/ just when I think life can't get any worse it just throws curve ball after curve ball at me/ what can I do to stop this, what must I do to stop this mess / maybe I'm the problem and not everything else / why am I here/ can I have a switch button on my emotions and just not feel anymore /save me but no one rly can do anything for me, can they/ only I can save myself but what if I can't